Note: On re-reading, I regret that this post can seem like it lapses into personal attacks instead of staying directed at the article itself. See the comments for more details.
Earlier this month, a writer named Tom McCormack posted an article titled “Milking It” on the Museum of the Moving Image’s blog. He talks about the It Gets Better project as opposed to the progressive politics of civil rights as depicted in the film Milk. I was kind of hoping that after a couple of weeks preoccupied with work and another writing assignment, I’d be able to respond to the post more objectively. That hasn’t turned out to be the case; it still just rubs me the wrong way all over.
McCormack’s main point is that the videos are a perfect example of how the civil rights movement — in particular the push for gay rights and women’s liberation — has transformed from the radical and militant views of the late 70s into a push for patience, tolerance, and feel-good statements that everything’s going to be fine if we all just work together. He fears that the videos’ attitude will let us all become complacent, convinced that we’ve done something positive when we’ve in fact done nothing to help. And he points out that the need for the videos should be a dramatic warning sign that everything’s most definitely not all right.
And that’s a valid point, and probably something that needed to be made explicit.
Where the article falls apart, though, is when McCormack starts speculating on what effect the videos are having, and starts picking targets and speculating about how much more they could be doing. Unfortunately, it all reads like a pitch-perfect parody of the Clueless Self-Absorbed Liberal. I’d think it were some kind of GOP plant if the vocabulary were less sophisticated.
For instance:
I’m not entirely sure of the effect the It Gets Better videos are having on LGBT youth throughout the country. It’s conceivable, even probable, that they are doing unimaginable good, possibly literally saving lives. But I am sure of how these videos are functioning among young, liberal, educated urbanites like myself: they’re comfort food. […] they also offer a chance to momentarily step into the role of disadvantaged LGBT youths stranded in unwelcoming communities […] The liberal city-dweller is allowed a Clintonian “I feel your pain” moment, without actually having to feel any pain, and, as a bonus, is told that these kids will be just fine—when they move nearby.
Well, I hate to break it to you, Mr. Straight White Male Cinema Studies Major, but maybe these videos aren’t all about you.
Now, of course I realize that the article’s addressed to a very specific audience, those of us who are watching the videos from a safe distance instead of being directly addressed by them. But still, holy smokes! It’s astounding how quickly and callously he acknowledges that maybe the videos intended to stop suicides might actually be stopping suicides, and immediately puts focus back on what really matters: how it affects people like him.
You really can’t give it a pass, because we’re talking about a group of people who are trained to make themselves invisible, and who are told through adulthood that their problems don’t matter. Gay men and women’s desire to serve in the military isn’t as important as some vocal minority worrying they’ll get ogled in the shower. Their desire to get married isn’t as important as some well-funded church group ignoring the first amendment and complaining that their religion is under attack.
And when there’s story after story of young men committing suicide after being outed or even suspected of being gay, and a video series is created in response, what’s the reaction we keep seeing over and over again? “All kids have it bad! Man up!” “We need to put a stop to all bullying, not just for gay kids!” No matter what the issue, there’s always some moron who pipes up with “What about the straight people?” Even simply acknowledging that you’re homosexual is instantly decried as “shoving it in people’s faces” and “asking for special treatment.”
So you want to put a stop to all bullying? Fine, just do it on your own time. Don’t try to steal the attention away from gay kids who really need someone to listen to them and tell them they’re not alone. And when an article like McCormack’s effectively says, “Yes, suicide is very sad, but what about the zeitgeist?!” it trivializes the issue; it diverts attention away from people who are seriously in crisis. It’s basically doing the same thing that the article accuses us all of doing.
To illustrate the difference between 70s “radical leftism” and the modern-day “more accommodating liberalism,” McCormack uses a scene from the film Milk. In that scene, Harvey Milk receives a phone call from a kid who’s planning to commit suicide because his parents are going to send him to a hospital to “fix” his homosexuality. (And in case anyone out there hadn’t heard of this: that’s not just a 70s thing; there’s still a very vocal “ex-gay” movement and it’s still fucking horrific). In the film, Milk doesn’t tell the kid to wait it out and be confident that his life will get better. He tells the kid that there’s nothing wrong with him that needs to be fixed, and that he needs to leave home and get to the closest big city, where he’ll find people who will support him.
McCormack does concede that leaving home to live on the streets was a different prospect in the 70s than it would be today, but I’m not sure he — or the other detractors of the project — fully appreciates what the “It Gets Better” videos are trying to address. And at the risk of diverting attention away from kids who need help back to myself, I can only explain what I think the videos do and why I think they’re important.
The first thing to realize is that the recent rash of suicides and suicide attempts is not unprecedented: if the “It Gets Better” videos do nothing else, it should alert everyone how shockingly common it is for LGBT youth and young adults to try to kill themselves. As more people are coming forward in one place to tell their stories of how things got better, they’re also describing how bad things got for them, and you hear stories of attempted suicide or thoughts of suicide over and over again. According to the Trevor Project, more than a third of lesbian, gay, and bisexual youth reported attempting suicide.
It’s important to understand that not all of these kids came from abusive environments. There are most definitely people growing up with terrible home lives, or subject to abuse at school or elsewhere, and they do desperately need someone to help them get out of that situation. That’s why all the videos direct viewers to the help line. But there are many stories of attempted suicides from kids who grew up in supportive environments. There are too many factors at work to blame it all on bullying or all on bad parenting.
For my part, I had just about the easiest and most boring experience possible coming out: I was already an independent adult, with a career in a very open-minded industry, with a job at a very gay-friendly company, surrounded by supportive friends, and living in the most gay-friendly area of the United States if not the world. And still, it sucked.
That’s because not all the pressure is directly external; it’s this internalized fear and loneliness that gets worse the longer you wait. I was very fortunate that I never reached the point of attempting suicide, but I spent a couple of years thinking about it constantly. If I had to describe the feeling of my lowest point to anyone, I’d say: think back on the loneliest you’ve ever felt, and then remove any sense of hope that it will ever go away. Because it’s not just a case where you’ll eventually meet someone, maybe, because everything that’s making you lonely is all your fault. (If you were reared in a religious household, add the knowledge that God wants you to feel this way, because apparently you’re weak, even if you’re not sure how or what you did wrong). And if you tell anyone about it, then you’ll lose the friends you do have.
When a person’s in that mindset of isolation and fear, the last thing he wants to hear is that his only hope is to leave his home and all of his friends and start a new life somewhere else. And it doesn’t help to give him a vague promise that he’ll meet other people who are supportive, if those people have nothing in common except for one shared trait.
Telling someone to leave — again, assuming he’s not in an abusive environment — does no good if he still hates himself and mistrusts other people in whatever his new home is. What’s needed is to be told that he’s not alone. That there are other people who’ve gone through the same stuff, or very similar. That what he’s going through is temporary. And that there’s visible, tangible proof that things can get better.
McCormack puts forward Sarah Silverman’s Message to America On Gay Suicide as an example of the direct, forceful message we should be sending out instead of giving vague promises of hope. In that video (go ahead and watch it; it’s only 30 seconds long), Silverman says that it’s hypocritical to be shocked at the rash of gay suicides and then defend homophobic policies like Don’t Ask Don’t Tell and bans against same-sex marriage or adoption. McCormack suggests that that’s the kind of video that’s going to effect long-term change, not feel-good messages of “just ride it out and wait for it to get better.”
But here’s the thing about that video: I don’t for one second doubt Silverman’s sincerity. And her message is succinct, forceful, astute, and completely accurate. But who’s listening? Was John McCain going to say, “Now that I saw that YouTube video from the shock comic, I’ve completely changed my vote.” Was anybody who was on the fence going to watch that video, much less have their opinions changed by it? She’s preaching a valid message directly to the choir.
I can imagine what my reaction would’ve been if I’d seen that video before I came out, either as a still-in-denial teenager or even as a miserable adult. I would’ve been annoyed that some Hollywood actress was capitalizing on my personal trauma to make some political statement. What the hell does she know what I’m going through? And I like Sarah Silverman.
I saw Milk long after I’d already come out, but I can imagine what my reaction would’ve been to that, too. I would’ve said that it’s fine for what it is, but it’s a movie for other people. It’s Oscar bait. A little too didactic. And the people and situations it depicts are as alien to me as those in Avatar.
I know I would’ve had that reaction, because when I was in my early 20s I saw a movie called The Wedding Banquet that knocked me back into the closet more effectively than a dozen episodes of “The 700 Club” would’ve been able to. McCormack describes himself as a “member of a generation raised on irony and self-doubt,” and I suspect that we’re of roughly similar ages, and I dismissed The Wedding Banquet just as I would’ve dismissed Milk: movies that don’t offer me anything I can relate to, but still try way too hard to sell me on some agenda. I said, “that has nothing to do with me,” and went on believing that my “problem” must be something else.
Understand that when I say that they’re foreign to me, I’m not saying that they’re useless. No doubt there are plenty of people who were raised in very conservative Chinese families who saw themselves in The Wedding Banquet and got some measure of strength from it. And no doubt there are plenty of people who watched Milk and learned something they hadn’t known about the gay civil rights movement. And of course, it’s exactly the events depicted in Milk that meant I could have such a relatively easy time coming out. But still, none of the depictions of gay people I saw in the media ever seemed relevant to me or what I was going through.
I imagine — and this could very well be an unfair extrapolation — that McCormack wants to believe that a particular video or a particular film has the power to become a cultural touchstone, the equivalent of the “I Have a Dream” speech for those of us who were overlooked during the first “civil rights movement.” I imagine that, because I like to believe in the power of film, too. But that’s rarely how media works.
There’s no single video in the “It Gets Better” project that is The One that will help everyone who sees it. (There are a couple that come close, though). Just like I don’t believe for one second that anyone will read my own account and have everything suddenly fall into place. But while I could dismiss or mock or ignore a single message movie or a television series targeted at a particular demographic, I wouldn’t be able to ignore the same message repeated over and over again by hundreds or even thousands of different people.
And that gets to my biggest problem with McCormack’s article, in reference to the wonderful video put out by employees of Pixar:
When corporations like Pixar come out with these videos they’re praised for their bravery, but it’s just as easy to see opportunism. Suicide is just about the least polarizing of issues, so how brave to come out and take a stand against it. If Pixar is really behind the LGBT community, why don’t they come out with a video against Don’t Ask Don’t Tell and in favor of legalizing gay marriage?
I have to ask: if you’re so concerned about these issues, where’s your video for same-sex marriage, Mr. McCormack? Or for that matter, the one done by the Museum of the Moving Image? How in the world could anybody, even the most egregious abuser of the “it’s someone else’s problem” defense, believe that it’s a movie company’s obligation to produce videos concerning political issues?
How is it even remotely acceptable to take a video of people sacrificing their privacy in the hope of preventing people from killing themselves, and accuse them of not doing enough?
I happen to know a little (third hand) about the making of that video, and it wasn’t some corporate-mandated public relations piece like McCormack and many others are assuming. It was a genuine attempt to contribute to the It Gets Better project, started by a couple of the employees shown in the video, which then found traction among other employees and gained the support of management. It’s a remarkable example of bravery — it would’ve been so much easier to remain silent instead of having thousands of morons on YouTube and Ain’t It Cool saying “lookit all the homos!” — and sincerity to deliver a message of hope instead of some self-serving accusation. And it just plain pisses me off to see anyone using the “I grew up in the 90s, I’m cynical!” excuse to try and tear it down.
And does anyone actually believe that a Disney-financed and Pixar-produced campaign video against proposition 8 or any other political issue would actually benefit anyone? It would instantly be seen as propaganda by both opponents and supporters alike — if anyone’s cynical enough to dismiss a video this sincere, they sure as hell are going to dismiss it if there’s even a hint of an agenda associated with it.
The video doesn’t have any direct political agenda; it is exactly what it says: a message to LGBT people who are in crisis and unable to find themselves, with the encouragement to stay strong and the reassurance that their life can get better. And even though I watched it long after I’d already come out, it was the first time I saw a video about “The Gay Experience” and found myself saying, “Yes!” and “Right!” and “That’s exactly what it’s like!” and found myself sobbing at the end because they’d gotten it so right. So if you, as a straight (or even gay) adult, are unmoved by it, then maybe that’s because it’s not for you.
Except….
One of the best things about the Pixar video is that it incorporates the main strength of the It Gets Better project as a whole: it aims for universality. (The ones from Facebook, Google, and most recently, Electronic Arts employees also do this, but of course Pixar has an unfair advantage when it comes to making movies that connect on the gut level). You’d be pretty hard pressed to watch that movie and not see someone that you can identify with. Maybe not ethnically, but in terms of background and temperament.
If you’re gay, that’s huge. “Here’s an intelligent, well-spoken person, presumably ridiculously talented, working for a great company, surrounded by supportive people, and he/she is just like me.” There may be hope for a successful life after all.
But if you’re straight, or really anyone who has limited exposure to gay people, it’s a pretty big deal, too. Not everybody in that video talks the same way, dresses the same way, or acts the same way. Aren’t all homosexuals supposed to be like they are on “Queer Eye for the Straight Guy” and “The L Word?” And they’re all accepted and they all seem pretty well-adjusted, is the weird part — not just the ones who “act straight” but the ones who are all super-gay or -lesbian too! It’s almost like some alternate reality where people are valued based on their own merits instead of one trait they happen to share!
And a huge part of the power of the video comes from the fact that they’re not politicizing, but instead sharing small, deeply personal things. McCormack acknowledges that speaking out against DADT (thankfully unnecessary at this point) or in favor of same-sex marriage wouldn’t be addressing the root problem, but he does so pessimistically:
Then again, DADT and the illegality of same-sex marriage are themselves symptoms, the legal and material base of an ideological superstructure woven so deeply into our cultural consciousness that it becomes difficult to imagine exactly when and how, big-picture-wise, things will get better.
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But when talking about basic human rights—and basic human decency—a majority is basically a sorry thing to celebrate. It’s a hurdle to pass, and perhaps a landmark, but no kind of ultimate goal.
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All of which ignores that fact that even if public discourse somehow shifted to being universally pro-LGBT, homophobia would almost certainly linger the way racism and sexism linger; championed by a few, unspoken but thought by many, and unconscious but internalized by most.
Yes, that’s most definitely going to be the case. The videos don’t promise that It Gets Perfect, just that it gets better. One of the hardest aspects of coming out, at least for me, was learning to accept that I will never be universally loved. It sounds either trite or egotistical, but it’s kind of a big deal: some of us are just brought up with this idea that if we work hard enough, and if we do or say the right things, and if we conform to the right standard, then we’ll give no one in the world reason to hate us.
But the thing we all have to learn is how to live our lives by our own standard instead of someone else’s. Trying to please everyone is a hopeless goal. Some people are always going to be racist, sexist, or homophobic. Some people are always going to hate us not for what we do but for who we are. The truest test of character isn’t how others value you but how you value yourself.
And when you ask a man what it is that he values, what gives him the most joy in his life, and he can name something as simple and basic as being able to walk up the steps to his apartment and hug the person he loves, then That Man Wins At Life.
Because he gets to do that every day, and no asshole screaming “faggot!” on the street, or on the internet, or in the US Senate, can take that away from him.
So when McCormack asks why Pixar hasn’t come out with a video against DADT or in favor of legalizing same-sex marriage: it’s right there embedded in your article, dude. It’s because of people like the Stonewall rioters and later Harvey Milk, that I can write about being gay on the internet and walk around the city holding hands with my boyfriend and be pretty secure in the knowledge that I won’t be arrested or beaten up or worse. And it’s because of messages like the Pixar one that more people will gradually understand what a fucking travesty it is to treat gays and lesbians like less-than-people.
I can understand being cynical or suspicious, and I can understand how easy it is to dismiss messages for being too maudlin, or too earnest, or too calculated, or too dogmatic. But when you see a guy talking about something as simple as being able to dance with his boyfriend in public, and he’s just beaming — beaming — with pure joy, I don’t understand how anyone could be suspicious or afraid of that.
Great article. I had the same thought you did: McCormack is missing the point and purpose of the videos.
Yet he describes them in a way that I feel is probably accurate:
It’s obvious that the It Gets Better videos are treating a symptom, not the disease. Like the suicide hotlines they sometimes recommend, the videos are an emergency measure; and like those hotlines, their use should be an indicator that there’s an emergency.
Yes, the videos are an emergency measure. But you don’t see people stopping doctors who are giving CPR because they should make sure people get enough exercise and a proper diet instead.
It’s perfectly acceptable to deal with emergencies first and treat the symptoms while you work at treating the causes. And if you only work on the “big things” and completely neglect the personal factor, how many more people are going to die in the meantime? Is it really an acceptable loss to you?
We’re not talking about helping kids not kill themselves and then do nothing else. McCormack falls into a common trap of “why do you do this, and not that, which is more important (in my opinion)?” They’re not incompatible or mutually exclusive. You can do a variety of things, and people who aren’t doing anything at all aren’t in a good position to complain about people who “aren’t doing enough”. (I’m not talking specifically about McCormack here. I don’t know the guy. He might be doing plenty. However, I have noticed that many people who complain that others are “doing the wrong thing” or “not doing enough” tend to do nothing at all themselves. That’s who I’m talking about).
When discrimination results from ignorance and fear of the unknown, as it often does, exposure helps a lot. It’s easier to be against “the gays” if they’re not actual people. But when you’re face to face with them, and you realise they’re people you actually like, you actually know, that they’re “normal”, then you can question what you were taught and open your mind. It’s good not to stay hidden, it’s not insignificant, and it’s not about shoving it in anyone’s face anymore than straight people do all the time. I believe that people who are coming out are helping a lot, first because it’s good to show everyone that you have nothing to hide or be ashamed of (because if you believe you do, what reason do they have to believe differently?) and secondly because it makes it real and human.
Of course, it’s still hard, I’m sure. Even when you work for Pixar and have relatively less to worry about, it takes guts. I think that should be appreciated, it’s not easy to put yourself out there for the world to see.
This was interesting to read. The article’s garnered some
strong reactions, but I haven’t run across any this lengthy or
thoughtful. It’s unfortunate that I seem to have garnered some ill
will, because I think we probably agree on a lot. I do have some of
course have some issues with what you say. First, you say that
because the videos were not made for straight people, it’s invalid
to talk about how they might be functioning among straight people.
The videos have spread virally and I think they really do play to a
large and diverse audience, and one of my major interests in the
piece was thinking about what that might mean. As I say in the
article, I think the videos are a good thing, it’s just their viral
spread among a lot of non-LGBT people that I find possibly
problematic. I was remarking on a phenomenon I’d observed, and
participated in, and was critical of – my evidence for the
existence of said phenomenon can only be anecdotal, since I don’t
run a large research university and haven’t seen any hard
statistics saying who watches these videos. But I’m pretty sure
they found a large audience outside the LGBT community. If someone
wrote an article about yuppies wearing Che Guevera T-shirts, it
doesn’t necessarily makes sense to say, “Oh, of course, talking
about yuppies instead of Latin American revolutionaries! Che didn’t
pose in that photo for them! It’s not for them!” Isn’t that sort of
the issue being discussed? As regards the Pixar video, I would
point out that I was pretty careful with my language; I said it can
seem opportunistic when corporations and politicians make these
videos, and I think it can. That the makers can seem like
opportunists doesn’t prevent the videos from helping young people
or even being moving, it just, I think, makes them complicated
documents. And I would it argue that it can be worthwhile to tease
out possible contradictions in our cultural objects. Happy that my
vocabulary apparently disqualifies me from being a covert
Republican agent, though voicing the suspicion doesn’t highly
recommend me (nor do your ad hominems).
Thanks for the measured response. I regret making it sound like I was lapsing into personal attacks instead of responding solely to the article. It’s a side-effect of stewing on it for a few weeks and then writing the whole thing in a single stream-of-consciousness. And also, taking a lot of cinema studies classes in college. I’ll add a note but I decided a while back not to do stealth-edits on posts except for typos.
Well no, I didn’t say that, and on re-reading the post I don’t think I gave the impression I was saying that. It’s completely valid to talk about how they’re perceived by straight people (and, I’ll add, openly gay people who are no longer struggling with their sexuality). I believe what’s invalid is to focus on how they function among straight people.
One of my biggest problems with the original article is how it treats the original purpose of the videos as an afterthought; “oh yeah, suicide.” As I acknowledge, I do understand that the article’s on a specific topic and directed at a specific audience. But it’s still jarring to see something as weighty as teen suicide given such cursory treatment, in favor of immediately launching into how a bunch of YouTube videos play for “liberal city-dwellers.”
Gay kids (and closeted adults) so often get compartmentalized or see stuff that’s very personal to them being treated clinically — you often see yourself being compared to penguins or seeing strangers debate whether you’re a sexual predator and making a big deal about how much of a choice you have. It’s nice to see something that addresses people directly and says, “We have a good idea what you’re feeling, and it doesn’t have to be so scary or miserable.”
When somebody’s on the roof of a building about to jump off because he lost his job, you don’t immediately go back home and write a blog post saying that something really should be done about the issue of rising unemployment in the United States. The first thing you do is help the guy down off the roof.
For starters, I’m definitely not saying that the videos, or for that matter any of what these kids are going through, are exclusive to some insular LGBT community. The whole notion of a shared LGBT identity is extraordinarily useful to some people, but it can also be problematic: in the attempt to identify a common “gay culture,” it’s gotten exclusionary and conformist, even if not intentionally. And if you don’t feel you fit in with the public face of “what gay people are like,” then it’s even more isolating than trying to fit in with “what straight people are like.” And on the other side, putting forward a shared identity gives homophobes a convenient stereotype to rail against.
That said: of course the videos have a wider audience than just LGBT teens in crisis. That’s what I acknowledge with everything after the “Except…” in my post. That’s part of the power of these videos: they don’t just reassure younger people that their lives will get better; they reassure everybody that it’s stupid to think of any of this as some big, scary, alien thing. That is going to do more to change the big picture than any number of earnest but mis-directed videos complaining about DADT or Prop 8.
And as for your Che Guevara analogy: I believe the tone of your article is more dismissive, or skeptical, of the It Gets Better project than you’re making it sound now. It would be as if you said Che Guevara obviously accomplished nothing because there are so many yuppies and college students wearing Che shirts with no idea what they actually represent. And the much bigger difference: an American yuppie seeing someone with a Che shirt has no possible benefit for people in Latin America or Cuba. But a straight person watching an It Gets Better video does indirectly and slowly improve life for gay people in the US, because it lets more people know that this is real discrimination affecting real people.
It’s possible that here we’ll just have to agree to disagree, because I think the tone of your article was pretty clearly an indictment of the Pixar video, with Silverman’s video put forward as an example of what they should have done. I’ve read it over again a couple of times now, and I just can’t hear the other interpretation.
That was my second biggest issue with your article, because as I mentioned, I believe the Pixar video speaks directly to the experience of people struggling to come out (like I was), and it communicates it so well. And I was particularly annoyed to see it labeled as opportunistic since I’d learned how it was made. It was not an obligatory self-serving PR piece like the ones from Obama, Clinton, or Biden. It started as a genuine, earnest attempt to help, mainly (I heard) from the producer who introduces the video, and it gradually gained support from other LGBT employees and then eventually the company itself.
And so I have to disagree that saying “it’s a complicated document” is any kind of justification. It’s not a complicated document. The beauty of it is that it’s not complicated — there’s no sense of worry about how it’ll be perceived by some audiences, or whether it’ll affect Disney’s market share, or whether it politicizes a movie company, or whether these employees are going to be made fun of, or even whether it’s cool to be crying tears of joy in front of so many people. It is completely genuine, heartfelt, and sincere, and that is the rarest thing to see after so many decades buried under layer after layer of bullshit lazy cynicism.
Again, it is unfortunate that my post came across as such a personal attack, instead of talking about the tone of detached cynicism in the article.
And while I strongly disagree with some of your points, I do of course agree with your main point: everything is most definitely not okay, and we should all be much more alarmed at the need for these videos in the first place. Anyone who says that we just need to be patient and wait for the homophobes to die off, or that it’s not such a big deal when there are bigger issues than “marriage” to deal with, or that gay people need to stop shoving their sexuality in everybody’s faces — these people seriously need a wake-up call.
And after spending six years or so watching and occasionally taking part in debates about gay rights over the internet, I’ve seen that arguing against homophobes is pretty much pointless. Their position is inherently irrational, so attempting to rationally argue against it just introduces more noise into the conversation. It’s depressing how long — decades — they managed to distract everyone by making people think “Is homosexuality a CHOICE?!” was actually a topic worth discussing. And that’s assuming that you even get around to trying to debate salient points, and aren’t just yelling “homophobe!” and “deviant!” back and forth.
Instead, it’s usually more productive to argue the finer points with people who are either mostly or somewhat in agreement with you. At first it comes across as “dissension in the ranks” or something, but eventually you see that it results in a clearer message. So that may help explain why it comes across as an attack; I do believe we’re mostly in agreement, and I just spent way too many years of my life trying to argue with people whose opinions I don’t even care about.